I’m a prideful person and God has chosen to help me work on that during this time in my life. I’d be lying if I said I’m happy to learn this lesson. My pride comes in the form of independence. I’ve always been the one everyone relies on. The strong one. The one who can take care of herself. None of that is true anymore.
I don’t make enough from writing to keep myself up. The government isn’t keeping me up either, in case you’re wondering. I haven’t been able to find work because who wants to hire an almost 60 year old woman? At least that’s what I tell myself. But if I truly believe that God is in control, wouldn’t He be in control of my ability to find a job too?
I have sold motors, car parts, and a camper my husband left behind. I’ve also traded two vehicles for rent. That’s all fine and good. The part I hate is taking handouts. I’m thankful, but I still hate it. Yeah, I’m being super transparent here, but I can’t hide this from God and He’s asked me not to hide it from my readers also.
Going through this has been a humbling experience. I’ve learned to lean more toward gratefulness rather than hanging onto my pride. There’s another side too. Other people get to step into Boaz’s sandals with their generosity. It’s one of those things God asks of us that a lot of people have a hard time with. If God ever does allow me to prosper, I hope I remember this lesson and give generously, like Boaz.
I wrote a study guide on the book of Ruth. You can find the link here-https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0FN6B7YP1 This blog series will follow along with each section of the book. I plan to post every Monday. If you’d like a reminder, please sign up to receive notification.
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